When you don’t know how to stop the world from spinning dissociating provides this sweet comfort. I could “check out” from any intense emotional situation and return when my body, mind or the situation became safe again. The exist had really little to do with safety and more to do with the perception of safety….
When the Name of the Game is Shame
If you have read pervious post you know I have been well acquainted with fear. In my very last post I introduced you to my experience with my friend shame. Shame has definitely been a close companion of mine over the years. I learned early on I was too much. I asked too many questions…
Nothing is Fair When Shame is Involved
“Shame on me, shame on me! Shit, shame on me,” is all that played in my head as I sat on the bathroom floor of barracks room. What on earth had I done? In that moment the shame I was experiencing was not the shame my mother and sister wanted me to feel, instead it…
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First, you might have noticed I did not post on Monday and boy did I stress about not posting. This week was the first full week back at work since my partner retuned home and I have been trying to whip everyone back into shape. We are all, slowly but surely, getting to our family…
If it pricks you, then it is for you
“If it pricks you then it is for you” is one of my favorite quotes. Every teacher I’ve had has said this quote to me during some part of my journey. I find I use the same quote when I am serving as teacher or mentor to another person. I personally use this quote as…
When Fear Leaves Love Enters
Then, the Navy happened. I saw the Navy as a way to get far away from everything and everyone. Little did I know the one person I was running from I could not actually escape no matter how hard I tried. No matter how far I ran there I was. No matter how fast I…
Another Session in Fear
Lesson is Fear continued….. If you read the last “Lesson in Fear” posting you might have felt you were left hanging. So to orientate you to the blog Mondays posting will run in a series format centered around one topic covering 3 to 4 weeks. The second posting of the week will be related…
This little light of mine
No one lights a lamp in order to hide it behind the door: the purpose of light is to create more light, to open people’s eyes, to reveal the marvels around. – “The Witch of Portobello” By Paulo Coelho I am currently pondering this quote because it resonates with me on several different levels….
A lesson in Fear
This blog is the reflection of the many lessons I have learned in my short life. As life works, I am sure many real time lessons will be shared here as well. I am a huge fan of looking at the world symbolically. I remember being a kid and seeing the world completely different from other members of…
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